Trials and WHINING!!

Just a note of warning -- whining is going to happen.

Today I took Kylees xrays with me to my local back quack to have a consult and an adjustment. The consult was first. He looks at the xrays, and tells me this isn't good, it has definetly gotten worse. I can help here and here, but here I can't do anything to help this area. This will need a specialist and more than likely surgery. LOVELY! As of this evening, I still haven't heard from her doc. Her xray was taken 2 weeks ago! Frustrating to say the least.

Understandably I am bummed.

For quite a while now, my eldest son has been on my mind - more than normal. I went to the store where he works in the deli to see him. Unfortunately he wasn't there. His recent current exgirlfriend was working. She is highly concerned about Andy. WHY?? "He's really depressed and I am really worried at what he might do!" Yeah thats comforting news every mother wants to hear. I don't know how to help him nor would he accept anything from me.

So HIGHLY emotional at the moment.

K Lord, I need a break from all of these trials you think I can handle. Not doing such a good job at the moment. I am so selfish at times. My trials aren't as bad as others, but are worse then some. I shouldn't complain and normally I don't. I am just throwing a pity party for one at the moment -- or until I can get the emotions back undercontrol. I just would like to know what to do and how to handle EVERY LITTLE BIT! Will be adding my car to my prayers, that it will last for a lot longer, especially since we will be needing to go up to Primarys and that Wayne will stay healthy enough to be able to work, that his bloomin truck will stop breaking down and stop costing us income. Why is it when theres light at the end of the financial tunnel a cave in always, always happen in some form or another? And it's not even the holiday season yet! We are starting early this year.

sigh................
enough is enough!